NaNoWriMo 2020: Failure

Oh, man. I know people are saying don’t be so hard on yourself this year and I’m not. But I didn’t reach 50k words, so, that is technically a failure. However, I’m not mad at myself or disappointed or anything.

I was so determined to finish Alice Fantasia but when it came down to it…I just didn’t care enough.

When I first had the idea, I was so excited. But I had no ideas and I was just writing and writing. I wasn’t getting more inspired or anything. I wasn’t daydreaming about the story, I didn’t even have a soundtrack for it that made me think of ideas. I didn’t have any passion for this idea anymore and, sigh, I just felt like I was writing for the sake of writing.

It was good for getting back into practice, but it felt like a chore more than something I actually enjoyed.

I actually gave up shortly before my second post was scheduled to post, but I wanted to finish this series. So, hey, have this.

I’ve been spending some time deciding what I want to do next.

This wasn’t the book for me, and that’s okay. I got some more practice in again and that was all worth it. I do wish I’d completed Nano but, there was no point me forcing myself to write something I wasn’t enjoying.

I might come back to this idea one day if I suddenly have inspiration then, great, if not, then I need to find something new. I’m not sure what I’m going to do. I feel like I want to do some sort of queer fantasy, but I don’t know what. There’s a couple of songs that always inspire me so I might see what they can do for me. But whether it will be queer or not, I don’t know. I keep thinking about my made-up gods again, so maybe I’ll finally do something with them. But maybe not.

How did you guys get on with Nano? Or have you had any new story ideas recently? Let me know!